I have a fucking B in physics and ap us history. Not good.

I'm sure I can raise my physics grades, since the teacher forgot to count the curve. Plus, I pwned the second test he hasn't graded yet.

But Apush. I don't know ): I dind't turn in a project online, and that got my grade down 50%, and apparently that's like a 9% drop in my total grade. But other projects shouldve balanced it out. But I'm not sure if she's graded them yet. I need to talk to her tomorrow. Been fucking acing my tests. What the fuck is this?

Sorry, I'm usually not that much of a cusser, but I'm so sad ): I haven't gotten a B since sixth grade.

I've decided that I'm not going to worry about my weight and dieting for the next week, and just focus on my studies and finals. I have physics, calc and english finals next week. then winter break. then the rest of my finals.

I need to be more antisocial and nerdy, I swear.

Tomorrow I have the club mtg and social event. Hopefully I can go shoppping for christmas presents after. If not then sat. Gosh so much ):

Christmas stuff is gonna take a while too ):

this weekend I'll have:

-two chs of notes

-physics practice problems

-calc hw

I don't even want to think. Back to notes.

I just feel like making a major list. So here goes:

Tomorrow:

- fettuccine smart choice meal (250) with green tea and maybe coffee

- sandwich with 4 turkey slices (170)

- broccoli or an apple after school (80)

- whatever's for dinner (500)

reminders:

- retainers in!

- dancing's fun

- be productive

- water!

schedule:

6 wake

8-3 school

chem at lunch

3-4 physics tutoring

4-5 home; snack; nap?

5-6 club mtg

6 shower

7 dinner

7:30 math homework, and whatever else

*no computer until all homework not needing the comp is done

then practice some physics problems

I'm staying up today to get some shit done. I need to study for chem. Or maybe I'll skip it and rely on lunchtime. I need to reread some journalism articles (as fucking editor-in-chief, you know). And get some history notes done, because I'm tired of feeling ashamed of myself and screwed when I copy my brother's old notes.

I'll stay up till one by force. And after that, it's up to my mood. I wish I had more time to read, but meh.

Life's gonna be busy ):

- english, calc, and physics finals next week

- club mtg tomorrow

- tutoring at the elem school on thursday

- club mtg on friday, and social event after

- shopping for presents on saturday and putting them together or maybe Friday, if possible

- shitload of homework and studying on sunday

- two chapters of notes this weekend

- physics tutoring everyday after school

But at least, there shouldn't be any more major writing assignments. They're the worst for me. They make me want to eat. So thank god for in class essays.

I feel like I'm forgetting some important things ):

What are you supposed to get a guy that's under five dollars, whose favorite color is blue, doesn't want school stuff, and might like sweets (though I'm already planning to bake him cookies)? (This is for secret santa at school, and he's a really nice guy)

My life's been going pretty good, I guess. Weight's still the same. Even though I've allowed myself to eat a bit more lately, I haven't really gained. Been too stressed with school I guess

There's several new guys. I've been talking to one of them on facebook for a month now. We met on Halloween. He's a friend of a friend of a friend. I was dressed up as a slutty ladybug (completely out of character for me, but I wanted to dress up and didn't have a costume so i borrowed a friend's) and he blatantly checked me out. But our convos are boring, and I'm not really interested. Even if he is apparently super rich. We just don't click. I enjoy the convos sometimes but meh. I thin

Second guy was from this social thing my club had with this guy club. He started talking to me. And he sat with me when we watched the movies. And somehow he ended up super close, that our arms were touching, and apparently he was leaning on me, but I didn't really notice. My friends kept teasing me after. Sent me texts telling me to "get some" but I do n't know about him. He's a cool guy, maybe he'd be a good friend. Apparently he doesn't usually approach girls. And he's thinks I'm really shy. meh.

All I want to do is talk to that guy from the last club social, who I talked to about books and held hands with for that game. But we've had no contact since.

And I keep wanting to see this cute guy in my chemistry class more, but i don't know ):

Oh, and there was another guy in between. At this other club social. He added me on facebook beforehand because we had breifly met after this meeting and I didn't talk much at all. He swore he'd talk to me, and he did. And he was scared he was too creepy on facebook, haha. It was the day before harry potter 7 came out, and he quickly realized that harry potter was the best way to get me to talk. And he was sort of flirting, I think, saying that I should ditch my friend and go watch part one with him, haha. We talked a bit on facebook, but that stopped to. Never really serious anyways.

Gosh, I'm becoming such a slut.

yeah, I just don't want to do homework...