But I can lose the weight. I can.
So I went to prom last week. The boy asked me super late and with strawberries and a note to meet him in the quad at lunch. I wish I had said yes differently. I feel too easy.
Prom was a nice but partly very awkward affair for me. I can't dance. But I tried to, cause the boy is in love with music (as am I) and enjoys dancing, but it was mostly a fail and also super awkward. He was very nice about it though, which made me feel bad.
He sort of had his arm around me a lot during the night, but in a nice, slightly romantic sort of way. He's very warm.
I don't want to get into a lot of detail, because I already wrote about it in my notebook and I hate getting too personal and girly and mushy on stuff like this.
But afterwards, we barely talked. He didn't im or text or facebook me or anything. But I sent him a song on sunday night before we went back to school, and we talked for a while, and he asked me to call him to wake him up the next morning. But he didn't pick up, but he had said not to worry about calling again if that happened. And in school, we didn't really talk at all. We have one class together, journalism. And he spent it talking to his other friends. But he came up to me in the middle of class, offering me my prom ticket, in case I had wanted to keep it. And so I did.
The next day was almost as uneventful. However, this other guy in journalism teased me endlessly about my attempts at dancing at prom. And another one of his friends trolled him by asking me how prom was and how he was as a date. I stayed in during lunch, as did he, partly. And he offered to pay me back for the prom pictures, but I refused.
Wednesday. He and his friend went to the pod to make popcorn or some shit and never came out, so the teacher thought they left and had me go look for them. I went even though I knew where they were just because I wanted to get out of class. He came looking for me a while after. And we sort of talked a bit again. When we got back to class, his friend was in the seat behind mine, so he stayed close to me, but I put my head down and ignored him. He then gave me a cd, saying I should listen to it. We both stayed in during lunch again and his friend trolled me. And he got all embarrassed about this manga he reads cause it has close to 1000 chapters and he didn't want me to know. And when I got home, I realized he had the wrong cd in the cd case, so we talked a bit about music and I downloaded the album he really wanted me to hear.
Thursday. Today. It was better. I entered class listening to my ipod, and he came up to me and started telling me a funny story as I was putting my ipod away. And then I got called out of class for an awards ceremony. (I got a science award for physics.) And we both stayed in for lunch for a few minutes, but he left before me. And he gave me a hug this time, which surprised me. Only, I was in my seat, and he had his backpack on, so it was entirely awkward, and I accidentally grabbed his ass. But he took his backpack off and rehugged me and his friend trolled him.
And so I'm confused about him.
Anyways, I want to lose weight still. Boys are always a good distraction.
