- instant noodles (280), 3 egg whites (60), 2 pieces imitation crabmeat (60), two wontons (100) (500)

- 3 chewy bars (300)

- .5 cup fiber one (60)

- two oranges (150)

- pork fu and seaweed (100)

- 8 mini dumplings (140)

=1250

tomorrow:

- lc meal (300)

- chewy bar (100)

- cereal (60)

- lunch? (300)

-

eh i dont even care.

-soup at hand (80)

- pork fu (70)

- spam musubi (700)

- thai tea with boba (300)

- diet hot coco with soy milk (100)

= 1250

damn shouldn't've had the spam musubi...

I've decided to take a break from writing. My sat scores really disappointed me, even though they were good. I don't know. I just feel like I can't call myself a writer anymore.

yesterdays intake:

- chicken sandwich (150)

- soup (150)

- two chewy bars (200)

- cereal (300)

- dinner: some rice and broccoli and meat (300)

- some pork fu (50)

- diet hot coco with some soymilk (75)

=1225

- tuna sandwich (150)

- chewy bar (100)

- cereal (200)

- half an apple and some apple juice (100)

- half bag of instant noodles, egg whites, imitation crabmeat (350)

- fruit snacks (200)

- dinner: curry house; no idea (700?)

- piece of white chocolate and two bites of low fat vanilla ice cream (100)

= 1900

shit.

no idea for tomorrow. might go to a dumpling house with my grandma in the morning. music festival or a brithday party in the afternoon. club dinner at night. let's just hope i walk a lot.

Today's intake:

- tuna sandwich (150)

- chewy bar (100)

- peach cup (75)

- 3 bites of a burger (75)

- instant noodles with egg whites (300)

- strawberry pocky sticks (200)

- dinner: rice (80), broccoli soup (150), some udon (150), tempura shrimp and chicken (300)

- diet hot chocolate mix blended with soy milk and ice (70)

=1650

weight: 98.4 lbs

Tomorrow's intake:

- tuna sandwich (150)
- chewy bar (100)

- school lunch (400)

- tuna or chicken sandwich (150)

- dinner (400)

= 1200

Goals for tomorrow:
- get ahead on gov/econ homeowrk

- read a chapter of moby dick and do notes

Today's intake:

- terriyaki eel rice (400)

- cereal (100)

- lunch at school: 3 chicken nuggets (275?), juice (50), small banana (75) (400)

- dinner: some pasta (200) and salmon (200) (400)

- chewy bar (100)

- 3 pieces of a hersheys cookie and cream bar (60) and 3 caramel candies (40) (100)

=1500

meh.

I finished my homework early today and took a two hour nap though, so that was nice. I also exercised a bit while reading my textbook and went to target after I ate dinner, so I got in some walking. I got everything done that I wanted to, but I still wasted a lot of time and ended up using the computer more than I'd like to... ):

Tomorrow's intake:

breakfast: sandwich with tuna (150)

school: chewy bar (100) and school lunch (400)

after school: sandwich (150)

dinner: whatever mum makes (400)

= 1200

Tomorrow's time table:

05:45 wake up

07:00 school

01:30 nap

03:00 summer school homework

06:00 chapter 2 moby dick

07:00 dinner

"if you have time, don't wait for time"

- Benjamin Franklin

Today's intake:

- soup (100)

-cereal and fruit (200)

- chewy bar (100)

- half a baguette (200)

- eggroll (100)
-fruit snacks (100)

-ramen (500)

- iced milk drink with pudding and boba (500)

=1800 ish

ahh I fucked up as the day continued..

Tomorrow's intake:

-leftover eel rice (400)

-cereal (100)

-fruit (100)

-maybe school lunch (300)

-broccoli (100)

-dinner (400)

=1100-1400

Tomorrow's time table:

05:45 - wake up

07:00- school

01:30 - nap

03:00 - gov/econ homework

06:00 - first chapter of moby dick and cornell notes

07:00 - dinner

08:00 - computer

09:00 - computer off; prepare for bed

I feel so goddamn idle all the time. And I'm so fucking tired because I procrastinated on my homework and kept using the computer and went out to eat with my brothers and now I'm sleepy and tired and I have a headache. I don't know why I can't just focus on my schoolwork and stop wasting so much time.

Tomorrow, I'll restrict my computer and internet usage. I'll sign off tumblr and facebook now. I must stop this. I feel so shitty lately.

I used to say I wanted to do something with my life, but how can I when there's nothing I want to do?

That was what I wrote in a letter to myself for english class at the start of the school year. I forgot everything I had written and was freaked out by how true everything still rings. It was such a sad letter too.

I've gained weight again. I'm currently 100.0 lbs and it disgusts me. I want to lose weight and it freaks me out how that's one of the only things I really want to do.

Summer vacation started for me last Thursday and I started summer school today. I really want to lose weight this summer and get my weight down to under 90 lbs. I can do it, if only I stop being so idle with my time.

And so I've decided to blog everyday this summer. I'll post my intake, no matter how shameful, my weight, and perhaps a picture or quote I like.

So today's intake:

- bowl of leftover fried rice for breakfast (400)

- chewy bar (100)

- fruit cup from school lunch (100?)

- half a serving of pad see ew (400)

- about a cup of thai tea (200)

- dinner: some rice (100), 5 chicken wings (350), some veggie soup (50)

- some fruit snacks and 2 sugar free caramel candies (100)

=1750

Intended intake for tomorrow:

-breakfast: vegetable and pasta soup (120)

-school: chewy bar (100), fruit (100), and maybe lunch if its good (300?), and bring tea

-after school: broccoli (100)

-dinner: whatever mum makes (400)

=820-1120