Current weight: fluctuates between 96 and 98 lbs depending on the time of day and what I wear
I don't know if I can lose around 8 lbs in one and a half months, but I sure as hell can try.
It's 4 am right now and I just finished doing part V of Crime and Punishment. I've still got a shitload of shit left to do, but the biggest thing is over at least. I'm also starving right now, which is good.
Things have been so overwhelming lately. I have a lot of homework. I have a B in ap biology and it just goes to show that I must start reading the chapters and taking the class seriously. I have college apps to do. I've been taking research classes that seem to be going nowhere at this point and they take up most of my weekends, at least nine hours of them and usually closer to fifteen.
I have a week off for Thanksgiving next week, but before then, I have to get my college list down and give my counselor everything he needs (stamps, brag sheets, etc.) and give my teacher recommenders everything they need as well (brag sheets, statement of purpose, transcripts, etc.). And during that week, I'll have a project for AP Lit, an essay to write, and the last part of Crime and Punishment to do as well as stuff for all my other classes. I also intend to get some of my private school shit done.
The deadlines are foreboding and my procrastination detrimental.
A boy told me on Thursday that I was at a good weight--not sickly thin as this one girl but still sort of skinny. I wasn't sure whether I should take him seriously as he took this fat but very pretty girl to prom. I wished I was sickly thin though.
I've been drinking my calories more lately and it seems to decrease the amount I eat. I just need to get some diet hot chocolate again. I also love coffee now.
I must fast for two of the days I'm home next week.
I have seven weeks to reach my goal.
