School is hard. It wasn't supposed to be this way.

I found out my history teacher likes to screw people over; she screwed up the grading scale last year so that only 5/60+ students got A's.

AP calc AB is hard. I don't know why, but I'm having trouble with it. I'm usually really good at math. In fact, part of the reason I like dieting is because I treat it like a math problem, with calorie calculations and unit conversions and all. But, I don't know, it's hard. I absolutely hate graphing. Not that a lot of it is involved, but one section is about it and I hate it. And I can't stand the way my teacher teaches. Nothing personal against him, but I can't stand it. I'm just not used to it.

Damn, I feel like I've lost my ability to be open minded and adaptable and malleable in the sense of my ability to understand things.

Physics is hard, but I actually like it.

AP chem's probably my easiest class. Journalism, though often stressful, is wonderful. English, my teacher is just so amazing that it makes me want to put a lot of effort into everything.

I don't feel like talking about weight or dieting; it's about the same.

I'm fucking tired as hell. I need to sleep. I'm going to start sleeping early even if I don't have homework done. I'm just going to wake up early to do it, so that I can maybe reverse my bad sleeping habits.

Tomorrow's going to be a fucking busy ass day. And I'm a lazy ass, so that often just screws me over.

-going to school early to get help on calc because there's a test tomorrow
-watching student performances at lunch
-club meeting after school
-fundraiser after meeting
-home at around 6 if I'm lucky
-group english project to do
-35 pages of a book to read, which is going to take me like 1.5 hours because I'm a slow reader and the words are really small, probably size 10 font.

I really do want to sleep early.

I really shouldn't've been so lazy this whole school year. I've been slacking off on math homework cause it gives me a headache. Haven't been reading physics, because the notes are due on the whole chapter with one day's notice. Been copying most of my history homework; notes, worksheets, studyguides, but I still manage to get A's on my tests. Just forgot to turn in that one project to the website which cost me 50% off my grade... thank god projects are only worth 10%. And screw the teacher for not telling us our grades.

This weekend:
-read three chapters of history; test monday
-read the english book we're on, because I'm probably just going to sparknotes it tomorrow.
-work on physics


I really hope the calc test gets postponed.

sorry this is completely boring and long. I don't expect you to read it.