motorcycle drive by

School went pretty great today. I love Journalism, though I feel intimidated in that class. I believe I made the right decision. I love all my classes. I am unsure of myself and how well I'll be able to do in them. Doubt is not such a useless feeling though. And it is often irrelevant. Even if doubt may exist, it's the challenge and my willingness to take it that matters.

I survived lunch in the career center, ran into a close of mine that I normally wouldn't feel comfortable hanging out with at lunch because she has her own group of friends that I don't belong with, but we just stayed in the career center, and it was nice. I feel incredibly grateful and lucky sometimes. This is one of them.

Even if things don't go so well tomorrow. It is fine. Even if I am a loner at lunch tomorrow, it is fine. Even if I feel so alone, I can still feel alive. I will bury myself in finishing some chemistry homework (cause I'm too much of a lazy ass procrastinator to do it now) or maybe I'll will just get lost in the magical, wizarding world of Harry Potter.

"I've never been so alone
And I've never been so alive"

-3EB (Third Eye Blind)

I am absolutely in love with this song. Here's what the lyricist had to say about it:

"The main idea in the song is that sometimes when you're really lonely, you really feel alive and you feel like you know who you are. "

I find it absolutely amazing, and this belief is what will get me through lonely days.
& My favorite line:

"I don't believe you, you're so serene
Careening through the universe
Your axis on a tilt, you're guiltless and free
I hope you take a piece of me with you"